Trying Not To Try
I have always been a trier.
Try harder.
Push myself.
Make it happen.
Of course we all need a certain amount of effort to move forward.
But sometimes that over-trying gets in the way.
It creates tension.
It creates anxiety.
Being overly attached to outcomes takes all of the fun out of life.
This has been really hard for me to overcome.
The perfectionist in me wants to get it right.
Be perfect.
To control.
It feels like smoke and mirrors.
I am “trying” to shift out of trying.
There is a paradox for you.
The controller in me wants to hold on for dear life.
In many ways trying has worked out pretty good for me.
I have had a great deal of success in my life.
But it doesn’t seem to be working out for me now.
Maybe the Universe is trying to tell me something.
It’s time for the shift.
To let go of trying once and for all.
How about effortless action?
How about letting go of outcomes?
How about getting my mind out of the way once and for all so my body can create naturally without interference?
How about just stop trying?
It doesn’t mean giving up.
That isn’t in my nature.
It’s more along the lines of allowing.
Detach from how I think it is supposed to be.
To surrender once and for all.
It has been a slow and gradual process this surrender thing.
Can I let go just a little bit more today and a little more tomorrow.
That sounds peaceful.
That feels empowering.
The ultimate state of being for me is unlimited freedom.
Control has been a trap.
Trying too hard has left me frustrated and quite honestly a little pissed off.
Maybe the opposite would feel better.
I would like to “try” not trying.
I already feel a little lighter.
Nothing to prove.
No more performing.
Simply being in the moment with full enjoyment detached from outcomes.
True power is inner power.
True power is letting go.
True power is freedom.
True power is effortless action.
True power is not trying.
Troy Ismir, MS
Spiritual Warrior
Inner Transformation Coach
